Friday, April 26, 2013

Don't Want to be a Slave

'I am allowed to do all things', but not all things are good for me to do. 'I am allowed to do all things', but will not let anything make me it's slave.  1 Corinthians 6:12 NCV

This verse is on my fridge.  Truth be told, it's been on there for several months with the purpose of reading it every time I go into the kitchen.  Sadly, I haven't been faithful at this.  But when I have read it, I have prayed, God, break the control food has over my life.  

It's shameful that I've let food become a god in my life.  Far too often, I have fled to food to be my savior. 

Having an emotional day. Food, be my comfort.  

Today's has been a hard day. Food, take away the pain.  

What a great day it's been!  Food, celebrate with me.

In all those moments, I have sinned and become a slave.  The evidence of my sin cannot be hidden.  You want to know what's so deeply sad?  I didn't confront this issue with food as sin until this past year.  But since I have been confronting it, a little more of the control that food has on my life is being broken.  I still have a ways to go, but I am making steps in a more holy direction.  

I making attempts to be more aware of what I'm eating and why I am eating.  And foods that are a real temptation for me, I have removed.  I love sugar!  But I know me.  I just can't eat one cookie or piece of cake and have the remainder somewhere in my house.  I know it'll call my name and nag until I cave.  Right now, I am not strong enough to say 'no'.  So for now, I'm not eating sugar or drinking soda.  I have to remind myself, that doing this not meant to be torture.  It's for my good.  

I don't want to be enslaved anymore.  I'm on my way to being free. 

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