A Bit of My Heart

Life lately has been overwhelming.  I attribute most of that do my brain rejecting the language I really want to love.  I want to learn and speak Spanish well, but oh, how I struggle.  

I've been in Costa Rica for 6 months and 6 days.  I can hardly wrap my mind around that.  What blows my mind even more is knowing that in less than 5 1/2 months I will be done with language school.  And in 6 months I'll be in Ecuador.  

Ecuador.  Although I pray for the ministry in Ecuador every day, I have a hard time picturing myself there.  It's kind of painful for me to admit this, but I haven't been excited about living in Guayaquil.  Not exactly sure why, but that's the truth.  Please don't understand that to mean I haven't wanted to go.  I have.  I've been content in knowing I am going to Guayaquil because it is apart of God's plan.  Content.  Not necessarily excited......

Until this week.

My dear friends and fellow missionaries to Guayaquil, arrived on the field this past Monday evening.  On one of their days searching for housing, they were taken to the new community where we're going to help plant a church and saw lots of children running around.  

Seeing children running around can bring a smile to anyone's face.  But me just hearing about this through email, brought a huge smile to my heart and instant joy. The image of kids running around this community has been cemented in my mind for days.  

And today I can honestly say, I can't wait to get to Ecuador to see the faces of those children.  To see their smiles and bright brown eyes.  To hear them laugh and yes, even cry.  I can't wait to hug and love on them.  To sit with them and tell them stories.   

It makes my heart ache a bit knowing that I have to wait to see these kids.  But it's a good kind of ache.  It's one that reminds me of God's purpose for my life.  It'll definitely be a drive on the hard Spanish days, because it's important they these kids hear about Jesus' love in their heart language.   They are why I need to learn Spanish.  

Jesus loves those children so much.  And He's placing within me a love for them as well.  Children I don't even know.  But I think that's what makes God so beautifully mysterious.  

In Matthew 19:14 Jesus said, "Let the children come to me.  Don't stop them!  For the Kingdom of Heaven belongs to such as these."  

Those very words echo in my heart.  

God, let the children come to me.  I want to share Your love with them.