Unsettled

Silent.  That is how my thoughts on paper seem to be.  There have been so many times I thought I should blog, just because it has been awhile, but nothing comes to mind.  Even now, I'm not entirely sure what words I'm going to write or even if it'll make sense.  But let's see where I end up, shall we?

If you were to ask me right now, "How do you feel?", I'd probably say "unsettled" and"I could really go for some peanut butter."  

Wanting peanut butter just came over me about 1/2 hour ago and I really should stop thinking about it, so my want of it doesn't increase.  

My "unsettled" feeling isn't because I'm not content.  I am content.  I'm in the center of God's will.  

I'm unsettled because I'm not in my 'home' yet.  

Four weeks from yesterday (Sept. 9), I moved to Ecuador.  I will call this country "home" for nearly the next two years....and more if God sees fit.  I have yet to unpack my bags.  I'm still living out of suitcases.  I'm in my 3rd temporary resident, which is a hotel room.  I've been here for a week and will be here for a few more days.  

I'm ready to settle in my apartment.  I do have one.  I'm not just able to move in yet.  Soon though.

Earlier today I was thinking about the unsettled feeling that I'm having and wondered if that's how God desires us to live here on earth.  As a follower of Christ, this place isn't to be permanent. 

I wonder if there should always be lingering thoughts of being unsettled and homesickness for my heavenly home.  Thoughts that keep me focused on the mission Christ has given me to love others and show them the Gospel.  To be reminded in the storms of life that this is just temporary and all I have to do is ride out the waves until I go to be with Jesus.

I don't want to hold too closely to the places I call home.  Or become too comfortable with this life.  Because it will fade away some day.  

But the glorious thing is, it will fade away.  All the worries.  All the concerns.  Heartache.  Pain.  Poverty.  Pride.  Loneliness.  

It will all fade and restoration will be claimed.  

All things will be made new.  

Living in the fullness of the Glory of Father God will be attainable.  

And joy unspeakable will linger for all eternity.  

To be focused on these things is what I need to be reminded of.  I want to live a life unsettled.

So friend, be unsettled.  Follow Christ and dare to live an uncomfortable life on earth.